Judas Iscariot was one of the twelve disciple of Jesus Christ. He betrayed his master with a kiss and sold him for 30 silver coins. After Judas had committed as predicted, he felt bad, useless, remorseful and repented that he betrayed his friend and master Jesus Christ. He repented,yes he repented! He returned the 30 silver coins to the chiefs and elders. But went ahead to hang himself.
“When Judas, the traitor, learnt that Jesus had been condemned, he repented and took back the 30 silver coins to the chiefs and the elders. I have sinned by betraying an innocent man to death!” he said. “What do we care about that?” they answered. “That is your business!”. Judas threw the coins down in the temple and left; then he went off and hanged himself.” Matthew 27:3-5 GNT
He lost everything. He lost on earth and lost heaven. Sad story!
Peter also a disciple, denied Jesus three times as predicted. It was recorded Peter wept bitterly. We never read that he hung himself Instead he did great things. Their cases are almost similar, only ONE difference-Judas Iscariot failed to forgive himself. His actions haunted him to the point of hanging himself.
Do you know many young people are battling secretly with themselves?. They have been involved in sensitive issues like rape, terminating an unwanted pregnancy, theft, betrayal, death of a loved one, dubious act etc. They are living with guilt and cannot forgive themselves. Its a secret they can’t tell anyone and have to live with all the rest of their lives.
Are you like Judas?
Inability to forgive yourself can lead to depression, fear, anger, addiction, low self esteem and sometimes suicide! It is one thing to repent and it is another thing to forgive yourself. You repent because you are remorseful, you feel guilty, ashamed and desire another chance to do right.
God is merciful. Once you have realised your wrong and come to Him with a sincere heart, He forgives you. He gives you another chance as you have asked. He gives you a new garment, clean and free of guilt. No matter the offence committed, He forgives and forgets. If God has given you a new chance, a new book to write on, why have you not forgiven yourself? Why the guilt, harsh judgement, and wrong actions?
No one is perfect and that’s why people tend to make silly and grievous mistakes. Before most people get to the age of 21, they must have made a costly mistake as a result of a wrong decision/action. While some would reap the fruit immediately, others might, later in their lifetime.
Everyone gets to pay for their mistakes. It is only the strong who get through. They don’t wallow in anger and guilt all their lives. They forgive themselves and move on. Do you know the devil is happy you are still killing yourself over the offence you committed? Start the process of forgiving yourself and overcome the devil.
Self-forgiveness is not a one day assignment. Its is an everyday assignment. Many things would come up that would remind you like it was yesterday. It could be a colour, a movie, a song, a person, when depressed, going through memoirs etc. You might end up crying, hating yourself and falling back into unforgiveness.
Snap out of that moment immediately and speak to yourself. Be aware that God has forgiven you and you’ve forgiven yourself. Speak words to heal your spirit. God is ever ready to assist you to get back fully on your feet. Before you know it, you would hardly remember anything and smile even when you do.
Enjoy the NEW YOU.
1. Acknowledge and accept responsibility for your offence
2. Pray to God for Forgiveness and believe He has forgiven you.
3. Pray to God to give you strength to forgive yourself and move on.
4. Tell someone trusted and mature about it or write it down(if writing works for you)
5. Remind yourself there is a bright future which you wouldn’t miss for your mistake.
6. Learn from the mistakes of your past and avoid them a second time.
As far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our sins from us.
Psalm 103:12 GNT
GNT-Goods News Translation
The story of Judas was not recorded for nothing. It is there to teach a lesson. Don’t end up losing on earth and also heaven like Judas.
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